And I still feel empty. I still miss her. I still feel myserable and with no motivation.
I know everything is hard for her too, but she handdle it in a better way that I do.
She doesn't say "I miss you" or anything like that, and even I think that she might feels it, she doesn't show it.

I really miss her, her voice, her laugh, she caring about me, she telling me "you can do it! don't give up because I'm with you and I know you can!". I miss her calling me "my dear" "my love" and being important to her.
I miss her hugs, her kisses, her cute messages in the morning or at nght, before I go to sleep.

I miss everything, and until now, things doesn't seems to change soon... I keep the hope but the uncertainty is killing me slowly. Hour by hour, day by day, week by week.

Everynight I go to sleep hugging the little cat plushie she made to me, hoping that in the morning she will call and whisper "I'm sorry, I can't stand this, I've missed you so much, I want you back..." but until now, nothing of that has happened. Instead of that, I feel that everday she is more and more distant, and the hope of being back together fades bit by bit.

Everything I dreamed, all my goals and plans, seem senseless without her. I'm trying to be strong, but I'm not strong enough.

Surely she will never read this, but if she does, you must know that I'm doing my best to not annoy you and keep moving, but everything seem wrecked and empty without you by my side.

I love you. I need you. I miss you.

Neko